Weathered letra

I felt unable
I was lying on my side
In the same clothes from the very last night
I wanna pray that I'm doing everything right

I saw my mom die for the very first time
She was an angel, god took her from the sky
And there's a million other people that I found
Who cared more than I ever will

I held that note out
I grabbed my bag and I left through the door
I let my hair grow
Put these words on my skin, I cannot relate

Would you believe in my songs
If I gave them all to you?
I can't find the strength in my voice
To call you back and say that everything is bad without you
And I'm lost again, oh god believe I'm lost again

I stayed in bed and we took so much that I couldn't even sleep
I waited so long
Though that wasn't even that bad
I never had to be a part of the world

And I've been making that a goal for reasons that I cannot explain
Well I'm an optimist but only in a perfect world
I think I'm too stained from all the negativity
From all the people in my way

Would you believe in my songs
If I gave them all to you?
I can find the strength in my voice
To call you back and say that everything is bad without you
And I'm lost again, oh god believe I'm lost again

I took a trip down south and felt the sun on my face
And it made things okay for a second
I drew a picture of my problems when I was going insane
And I focused on the currents

It's the funny thing about it
I never seem to worry that every single current's not the same
It's all about position, and where I choose to lay
And god I am going away